serenity at midnight

When was the last time I sat in front of the computer and wrote down my thoughts? A day only has 24 hours, and if two persons spend it together, one would only have 12 isn't it? It's only a joke, but life has been incredibly busy. When we're doing homework, when we're talking to each other, even when we're looking into each other's eyes, time slipped away, without leaving us a note.
I never imagined we're already where we are right now. Different things are happening around us quicly, and I guess we just drift along with them. A day after our two-month celebration turned into something far more important. And just like that, I made a decision that I am never going to regret.
And there comes the responsibility. you said I always talk about future, and we don't really know what will take place. Well. today I'll look at the past, and find out how we got here right now.

5.22 That's right after we were together, and you feel a complcated emotion at heart. You're not sure about the future, because you're afraid of two people living at 2 places. Honey, to be honest, I was scared of that too.
5.25 Hillsong concert, and for the 1st time, I made some food for you. Thank you for letting me know your happiness.
5.28 Is this the first time for us to hold hands? I don't know, but I can tell you are glad. You feel like I was trying my best, and you're satisfied with what we had that time. You don't want promises, because you dont like asking for too much. You're grateful enough of the fact that we're together.

My eyes suddenly got a little wet. I don't need to read any more of that, because I already remember what it was like in the beginning. We didn't have the physical relationship by then, but I believe we liked each other not a bit less. IN the first 6 days, I didn't make you mad for once. But then I got a bit greedy, I became more demanding, and I started to argue with you on the smallest things. Your hope of happiness is such a simple wish, yet I didn't do what I could to make it happen everyday.
You have already given me a lot, even more than what I deserve for what I did for you. I want to assure you again, for every decision I have made, I will live up to my words. I'm not asking to go back to the life in the first 6 days, but I will fill your life with that original joy one more time. No more argument, no more misunderstanding, and a lot more trust and smile. It's summer, and I want to give you as much sunshine as I can.

6.23 兩個月後的今天
你就要回去了
那時候你可能正在回去的途中
然後我可能正在這邊寫下我對你的思念

When that time comes, I will be missing you as much as you think of me. But I don't want you to feel lonely and blue. I am, and will be with you as you breath every time. I have faith that we can get through this, not only because our commitment is strong, but also I will keep my love fresh and firm for my loved one, today, tomorrow, and every day after that. Until next time we see each other again, God speed.