faith rewound

Maybe nothing can escape facing some sorts of adversity. Probability wise, the chance is just too slim to live day after day of your life without encountering any difficult situations. If I have to be tested to see if I've truly grown up, if we have to be challenged sooner or later on our way to the promised land, then I'd rather accept it on my shoulder now.
There are obstacles standing in the way, harsh words to be heard, doubts and conflicts from within. I understand that faith can be shaken, hearts can be hurt, and like all other troubles, we have to deal with them. There are things that must be discarded as sacrifice, and there are things that needs to be kept intact no matter what. I've come to realize what I need to accomplish within the limited time, and albeit whatever that seems to deter me, the choice has been made and the path has been set. There's never any confusion of that within me, since I've made up my mind in the beginning.
I admit I was careless for a moment, and then found my body dragging my feet to slow me down. Surely it has taken its toll, but I need to change a few gears, tighten a couple of screws, and turn myself to full throttle as quickly as possible. It's a race against time, and other than this time, I will take no more break. Next time i come to a full stop, it will be after I cross the finishing line.
It must be hard work for you too. I know it's not exaggerating to call it the hardest time, but you've walked with me this long, I remember every step we took, and they are all brightening my heart. And in the days coming, I'll do what I can to make your life easier. I admit that I still have growing to do, and I don't want to deny it when you call me immature, but I really want to reach the point where i can carry the whole weight of responsibility on my back and give you a green land to settle on. After all, when we get past this time, we'll become much more grown up, and even if there are more to deal with, we can look at everything with greater faith.
I thought for a while and still can't express my appreciation of you. Maybe I cherish you too much to put everything into words. But at this time, when I'm looking ahead of us, all I want is your hand. Stay close, and there's nothing we cannot overcome.