Hey, you know what, the reality ain't that bad.
2 days ago I was pouring out my thoughts of things, and now they all look a little too overdone. I guess this is just the capricious side of a human being, and I'm sorry if I'd do it again sometimes. As it seems, my resolution is still as weak as a thin piece of paper. But despite all that, I can feel I'm starting to pick myself up. I've killed a couple of big distractions lately; even if this is no big feat to anyone else, it gives me reassurance and calms me down a bit. Now I'll just keep this up and improve myself day after day, until I become fully matured.
There's something else I'd like to write down here: I saw on internet something tempting, but imappropriate. Normally I would give way to my curiosity and darker desires, but today, that stuff just made me sick from the start. I am grateful, as I still believe in my standard of values. I won't give in to the scum in this world, just like I never did before.
I still can't place my faith in God, but I do agree with what mom said once before. Fate gives me an ordeal, and I am left with 2 choices, and two distinct outcomes. If my determination is foiled in front of these difficulties, then I'm done for the rest of my life. But if I can step up and make a stand on my feet, then the road will open up for me. I'll fight on. The future is not known, but I have this feeling, this inner inspiration that I will definitely wade through the swamps and arrive at the other end. The silence will soon be broken.
People call me too arrogant, and now I admit it. Moreover, I apologize for every act that annoyed others, and everyone that I have offended. From now on I'll never look down on a person or a thing, because I myself have enough shortcomings to be ridiculed by people. I will behave myself in every single occasion.
To all beings, may God's love be with you tonight.
Ron