There are things I never want to think about, but often they just take place anyway. So in the end, by the time they come to me, I am not fully prepared, and just left alone to think how I could've done better.
Well, looking back a bit, I'm already home for almost a month. Wow. That means my stay in this place has already progressed about 1/3. For many times, I wished the time could just stay at where it was and not move forward. I told you not to imagine what would happen after September, and honestly, I didn't want to do that myself. I only know it's going to be difficult, and you said the real hard part starts now. But the last thing I want is leave as it is, and not getting ready for it. At least, I'll make sure I am mentally and physically prepared for it.
I once hate it when time goes by this fast. Now that I carefully thought about it, this might not be something bad after all. I know at some point in the future, I will mature and become a full-fledged adult, who can take on the responsibility of supporting a family. If our days go quickly like this, then doesn't it mean that day is going to be here soon? I know most people have limited patience, and I definitely don't want to keep you waiting for too long.
With that said, it only means I have to work more, and work harder from this moment on. A promising future will only be obtained with my own effort. Sometimes I need a lazy day to get over myself, but 99% of the time I shouldn't allow this to happen. So if you really like me and are willing to be with me from now on, think about not only how we should enjoy today, but also how we can get to where we eventually want to be. Support me to do what I need to do, remind me when I forget my responsibility, and admonish me when I am being tempted and get astray. In the meantime, I'll do my part of the job and tell you the same. I am aware this might sound quite sudden and might even hurt you a bit in the beginning, but I'll just tell you one thing: I'm really thinking about the future now, and this is probably something necessary and we have to get used to. If we can encourage each other, alert each other of our own mistakes, and hold our hands together thru the days and nights, I believe we really can go a long way, and our dream will really become true.
Before either one of us falls asleep, I pray to God that you have a peaceful slumber, and thru Him, will the 2 of us be connected. Tomorrow, I will work harder, and also like to see your smile again, because the warmth of your hand can always make me feel at ease.