Written before exam

Okay. This was a night of sleeplessness. I am a bit deprived of rest now, and maybe I'll have to make up for it later. I thought about writing this down in a letter, but I found no good paper around me, plus the time is tight, so bear with a blog entry, please.
I don't like arguing before tests, because that could be the biggest distraction for any important events. But as it turned out, I'm still helpless when my temper flared up, and really can't blame this on anyone but myself. Even as I spilled out my anger at you, the other side of my reasoning told me to stop, for getting mad isn't going to help anything. But I just couldn't help myself, and all I did was desperately watching myself hurting your feelings too. But let's leave it at that shall we? I'll become a better man, so that we can have as little argument as possible. And because of me, you had a bad night. I wonder why I often hurt people who I care about the most, but I also know the more I care, the more mistakes I'll make. And thank you for putting up with me all this time.
I have 15 mins left before I depart for the test. preparation is done and my head is so stuffed with information. I guess I'd throw up if I look at those formulaes any longer. So I can only think of you, and send you a silent prayer, for that's about the only thing that will give me a bit of comfort and assurance. Even though you're still bothered by it in the morning, even though you sound a bit distant to me when we talked, that's okay. Time will flow and it will go away, just like we can get over it soon. Like we did in the past. I don't know if you noticed, but I told you no matter what happened between us, I'd love you no less than I did before, and most likely, a bit more everyday. So whatever problems they are, I'm not scared. I know you'd be right beside me when I go through it all, and you are the one person that I can trust deeply, right?
I don't want to conclude here, but there's little time allowed. I will leave very soon, and tackle this last mission before the weekend. It's a pity that we couldn't talk like before this morning, but there will be much more ahead, and even if we're still at the bottom of the valley, we can climb up little by little, until we get back to the top, where true happiness resides.
I know you don't like dreams, but let me still pray for you, that you can have a wonderful, sweet friday morning. I can hug you in 26 days, but even when you're over there, I will still embrace you in your sleep, keeping you safe and warm. I'm sure when you wake up, you'l be as lovely as the morning sunshine, like you always are. Bless you, baby.