I can't deny the fact that it sounds absurd, because sometimes it doesn't make sense even to me.
I won't go as far to defend my belief, because a belief isn't a perfect concept.
But somehow, I know it's going to be that way, and my faith hasn't dimished a bit all this time.

I understand how you feel when disappointment hits you right on. It seems every kind of imaginable trouble begins to lay a siege on you, one by one, and the road gets just worse. You want to escape, by wishing you could go back to being a child, by doing something else to distract you from all this mess, or by simply wanting to leave this world. Everybody feels it sometimes. But as long as you don't give in, as you still hold firm to what's most precious in your heart, dark cloud will be cleared, vicious gust will cease, and troubles will leave you in peace. I'm sorry I don't have the power to deliver the joy to your side, but in God's name we pray, as his fatherly love embraces us all.