It's funny how I sometime burden myself with the word "responsibility". Maybe I'm just excusing myself for something I dare not do.
Well, now we're talking about dramas. I don't reject them as a whole, but I do see them as a condensed version of life. It contains certain elements, such as love, hate, struggle, and freedom, and people often get touched by the truthfulness of such a presentation. That's how the directors and actors get their profit from us. And it's fine that way.
But don't forget, when you condense something, it is not quite the same as the original.
Whether it's a love story or adventure tale, I believe there must be a counterpart in real life. Otherwise it would be impossibly difficult for the writer to construct such a thing out of empty air. Nonetheless, what they tend to omit in their works, is the boring part of our daily lives. How often do you see them portraying our everyday activities in any drama? If I were to write something, I probably wouldn't spend much time on taking showers, making food, and studying for exams. They're the part of life that we're so familiar with, and if they put any emphasis on them, we would get tired and sick, and probably discard the entire show as a result.
But you still need to do those trivial things in reality. If you don't take showers, then you'd be dirty all day. If you don't cook or buy food, you'd suffer from starvation. If you don't study hard, then you'd fail your exams and get a scolding from whoever is concerned about you. While we are involved in various emotional and physical struggles, no one is living like that in every moment. Our mental capability are too fragile to handle too much ecstasy or disappointment.
So before long, I was already dismayed in such fairytales. They're like beautiful prophecies, but never to be realized any time soon. I can't live in my dreams alone. If that's the case, then, I rather get on with my life and try to make my days a bit more meaningful. If I can't give you the complicated love entanglement you're longing for, I can at least do those little things to make your life a little easier. That's the only responsibility I'll promise to take on.
And sometimes, I think what we see on TV is a reminder to ourselves, because we'd better prevent the same thing from happening to our own lives. That's why I'm disgusted whenever some divorces from movie megastars break out, like how they get separated in merely a week since they're together. It feels like they're playing a game, and in this game they're trying to make themselves look as foolish as possible. Too bad their acting skills are so detestable that I don't even think it's funny or enjoyable to watch.
It's also the foundation of my belief, even though I have been called stupid many times. Take marriage as an example. To me, it's a little different from some grand ceremony that we enjoy, and a wedding ring isn't something you toy with. Before the marriage, you can flirt with anyone or go out with them at the same time without feeling too guilty, because you're not yet commited to anyone yet. You're just friend with them, and there's no reason to bind yourself to the floor if you see it unfit. But when you swear the oath to your partner for life, it's not just some formality to go through; you actually mean it. It means the beginning that you are prepared to accept the difference between you two, face the hardship lying ahead, and take on the responsiblity of caring for each other's well being. It means you understand there maybe storms coming up, and you are ready to step into it without ever letting go of her hand, even if you're torn to pieces, smashed to the ground, or dried of all your tears. Maybe it's never going to get that unfortunate, but you're aware of such a possibility. It's not like poker; if you find your hand displeasing, you are not going to change to another one. You stick to your hand and try to make the best out of it.
I always say I need to mature, and I think I'm mature enough to hold my own ground. When I watch a movie, I laugh at the funny moments, I shed tears at the sad parts, but when it's over, I'm back on track and never get lost in this concocted plot. They are there to entertain, not to ensnare us or distort our view of the world. There maybe a chance of its happening in real life, but the chance is no more than a fraction of a million. And I'm pretty damn sure it's not going to happen to me.
My opinion may be different from yours, and I'm fully conscious of this possibility. I apologize if what I have said offended you, and I'll be more careful with my words from now on. Still, I will hold on to what I believe, because this is too fundamental to be changed by a whimsical comment. Perhaps my perception of the world isn't entirely accurate, but I shall walk down this path,, as I need to listen to my Father's words and fulfill His wishes.
I hope you understand what I've been saying, but it's fine even if you don't. Just remember: whenever a word comes out of my mouth, I am responsible for what I say, and as far as I know, it is going to remain that way for the rest of my life.