It's snowing outside, and it's snowing inside too.
Getting irritated by the conversations out here, I choose to retreat to my own room, somewhere quiet and I can calm down my irregular heartbeat. I guess in a normal day I would of joined their inane chat, but not now. I smell an inauspicious intent in my mind, and I need to kill it off before going out of this room.
The room. In silent hill 4, this is where Henry is practically imprisoned. He is shown the truth, but there's nothing he can do, there's nowhere he can reach to, there's no one he can call for help. I do have someone. The Lord oversees everything I do, and he sends me an angel for instructions. With this, I will fend off any offensive from the evil forces, and thwart every attack from Satan. If you laugh at this, then just watch me. Maybe I don't have a lot of physical strength, but I'll show you the power of faith.
The snow isn't that heavy, though. What's worse is that it somehow grounds my will to move out. It will be a bit more chilly than usual, but just looking at the whiteness blinds me. If I don't have to step into the outside, then I'll stay inside for sure. I confess I'm a lazy child of God, and I have done that many times. Still, why do I get so easily frustrated? The angel tells me to do my best in every situation, and I did make quite a few attempts at it, but why am I still getting easily stuck in the hardship?
Grow up. One of my daily phrases. In fact, I need to grow up the most. There're times in life when I can't back off, and I must go through the stage, right now. I will step into this snow, because it's the only right thing to do. I will wade through the river of suffering, for it's the only way I can reach heaven. I am Lord's child, and I need to fulfill my father's wishes on earth. Until I accomplish that, I am not going down.
I take another look at the angel midair, smile one last time to her, inhale a deep breath, and start to get ready for my new adventure. I will travel through the winter freeze, and look for the spring sunshine. I don't know when I'll be back, but I make a solemn vow: the next time you see my figure, I will lighten up your sky, and paint it to the most colorful.